A teenage crush is getting married. We dated for a few moments. I see photos of her anointed with turmeric paste (confused?) along with compliments from well wishers. And I wonder – has she found a piece of happiness? Sure she has! Who am I to contemplate her future? And yet … I cannot foresee the madness the future holds. This madness that is within all of us. We procreate at a pace the world cannot keep up with. Why not overwhelm this planet once and for all so that it rejects us and we are chowed down into annals of fertile soil. Why do we persist in a manner that ill benefits us and our children after us?

Here I sit and question the institution of marriage – as many youth have done before me. Who knows! Maybe I will find the lustful passion that devours reason, maybe I will fall deeply in love with a woman who caresses me, sighs in my arms, melts me in her gaze. Maybe not! How can one possibly spend an entire lifetime with just one other soul? Have you not experienced the thrill of meeting new people? The sensation of opening one’s mind to a multitude of people, each new person bringing with them a different stimulant, each soul spurring a different piece of yours …

 

How can mankind change so much in so little time yet remain so archaic? How can age old traditions walk hand in hand with the latest Mercedes S class cars? Where are the answers to these umpteen questions in my head? Why don’t I just go swim in a lake? We are burrowing over minefields and cemeteries. We inject our fruits with fertilizer and lace our vegetables with hormones. We divide and divide and murder and create cacophony. And we claim to deserve love. We claim piety. We lay claim to this world and all its beauties. Tears well in my eyes as these words pour out of my soul and I cannot feel the sunlight any more. The gloom and turmoil …

 

And now I will lay down on my bed, attempt to calm my thoughts; conquer them if I can, and laze myself into a sleep full of voluptuous thoughts and dreary dreams. Tomorrow I may wish her the best in life, wish her all the happiness in the world, because we all need a smile, a wondrous smile to erase all worries, a hug to dissolve all misery, a loving gaze from a stranger’s eyes, an empty page to pour out hearts into, a lover’s tender touch.